Another outing :), and a 4 year old meltdown :(

Today we all went to visit my sweet professors, and the babies did pretty good.  They loved getting all the attention, and extra cuddling time.  As for me, well it wore me out, but it was worth it.  Stacy and I had quite the challenge getting the stroller in my vehicle.  :/ A little frustrating to say the least.  I still need the extended length in my vehicle, or add the bike hitch to my vehicle and put the stroller on it.  Gonna try that this weekend, and see how it works out.  

Once we made it back home, the babies were definitely ready to get out of their carseats, and eat of course. :) They get quite sweaty, and hot in the carseats, and I can't remember Beau ever getting that hot in his.  Anywho, we fed the little dumplins, and got settled back in at home.  

Before Stacy left for the day I wanted to help Beau clean his room.  It was a complete disaster zone.  We use to clean up every night before we would get ready for bed, but obviously that has changed.  So during this process today, Beau was absolutely not having it.  Didn't want to help at all.  Frustrated me so much, because he usually is very helpful and minds me.  After all the back and forth with him on cleaning, while I cleaned his room, I thought about it.  Then prayed, and know that I need God's guidance during this transition.  Beau was so use to me giving my undivided attention, and now that has changed.  So it is changing him a little. :( Some of the answers for me have been trying to find ways to include him in more daily routines.  I let him pick out the boys cloths, help me feed them, and of course bought the fort that will be here in a couple weeks, and also bought the jogging stroller so I can get all the babies outside while we play etc.  I'm definitely trying to make things easier, but I've realized it's a process and takes time.  I also finally got the multi-monitoring system hooked up today, with the help of Stacy, and can't wait to use it tomorrow.  The babies normally nap in living room.  But now that they are a little older, and more alert, they need peace and quiet.  So off to their bedroom they go.  :)

Long story short I need prayers for me as a mother.  For guidance, grace, just everything.  It bothers me I can't give Beau the attention he had before, and I want to be a good mother to him and the  babies.  Whew that's it.  A lot!  I just want to be all I can be, with a positive outcome.