Sunday, February 24, 2013

30 weeks...

Today feels like such a monumental day for me. I mean yesterday I continuously thought about today, and the #30, all day long and what it might bring. In the beginning of this unexpected journey in my life I was consumed with being overwhelmed and in shock. Then by the Grace of God, I became at peace with becoming a mother to three more children in less than 9 months. Doctor visit after doctor visit I became more amazed at how much mercy and grace God was pouring over me, by surpassing so many odds against me. I can't ever describe how truly grateful I am for such an awesome Savior. I am completely unworthy and have no idea why HE chose me, but feel blessed that HE has carried me with a steady hand thus far. Sometimes I just sit and get so emotional thinking about it all, and comparing my pregnancy to all the others I read and hear about. Then somehow I get worried and scared. I have strong FAITH that God will hold me until HIS perfect timing for the babies to arrive, and I trust in HIM that everything will be ok. I have to admit my anxiety has been slowly creeping back up, and fear will creep in. But, usually I rebuke that and realize my higher power is in control. One thing I learned early and would suggest to any woman expecting multiples is that it is ok to research accredited websites, but do not get caught up in reading stories or blogs of woman with the same type of multiples as you. Scientifically speaking on type of multiples. This will only consume you and make you worry, when you should really be researching how to take good care of yourself during this huge arrival and pregnancy. I wish I could share every experience throughout my pregnancy, but it would take all day. I do hope that the parts I have shared will renew hope to anyone in any situation to just trust in The Lord with all your heart even when you can't see how some things are even possible.

Here is to me turning 30 weeks.

Blessings!

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